What a "What the Hell" feeling after the class over on that day!

Felt so angry of such impolite manner that faced on my teaching class.
I really do not know how to describe this until I have confirmed the observation for this situation.

Tsk Tsk Tsk

Tea and me somewhere is PJ. Selangor

While I am spending my time before my music class begins at 5pm. Christchurch is now making me aching in head after planning my Sydney and Krabi trip. And Krabi is kind of TBA for me. And it is just a pending trip between me and my mom.

I got another itinerary detail not put in the list yet which is the princess or the lanjiao temple way to in some a called island tour.

Now, just left a tea, laptop and a mouse on my table. Mingling my head where to stay at Christchurch for the September ends. It is now snowy in New Zealand, I love it actually, pile of snow on my face. Yum, thinking of ice kacang. Yum. But I will not take the snow, Hmn no, no, .

This afternoon is just letting me to sneeze or not. The Haze outside made the sight so blur, everyone was just wishing to search a place with some fresh air. Like a little Tea with me. Where this time I can think of my future then. Thanks to Indonesia not? Just an irresponsible country to say.

When people asking what do you/I want in my career path, I answer : " I dream for future, not career path" career is just a small portion in my dream, and I wish to sleep long, so the dream will continue thoroughly.

Playing music via technology or with my voice and hands will also lead me to a future, where it might not is a career for my dream.

Somehow, planning some getaway is the best escape to fulfil my dream comes true.

I wish to stay with a place which is clean and fresh enough but letting my foot step not to stop in sudden.

I love the irish cottage look house that I can spend some time with all the plants and pets in the garden. My house, then not to be as big as mansion, the car will just enough me with my accompaniment. However, I love the twinkling lights in the big cities like vegas and NYC, walking with many people and making my self rushing on a runway stage. But I hate Crime, hate people's arrogant and I hate to be stupid.

I believe that there is a place that suit me one day, I wish to explore the world. I just don't want to be a normal sitting office lady with a routine scheduled tasks and some what some politics and gossip like in the improper fish market and mainly in asian culture fish market.

Politics is thus important in the grape vine chain culture in office, and it is a very good topic in one of my planned research study with the main title of Human Resource. Technology then, the civilisation.

Thomas Friedman is an inspirational author that he mentioned wide in globalisation-ed world. While, many still under "sit" in this. (Opo of understand). It then lead me another new topic in my mind.

I will do it and complete it in one day with these topic queuing in my mind.

A step forward, I will never again a frog beneath well. Somehow, my mind need to save me out from the well. I am outing from that very soon and one day before my death, it will be worth living with a beautiful life.

Thanks to the gossip girls beside my table talking about their very own office politics in DHL for giving me wonderful idea in writing this post this afternoon.

I need to prepare for class. =)

Do not put your own assumption on others expectation. Vice Versa

After months of Japanese class. I am now able to put out some little phrases to convince public here.
Haha, and well, I am lucky enough to get a piano teaching job near that area before my depart.

Well, it is so lucky.

I do not know what more does the adult expect me to me more over. As I can now survive and live lively. I mean the older adults.

And I have being so numb to talk to my father already. And there's no conversation with him since "Don't know". Just lazy to open my mouth wide for him. Useless.

I do have doubt on this page, sometimes, it could be shown in my facebook page, and sometimes it just be invisible for others.

Due to the very heavy work load and life crumbs these days, speaking out through written my blog is just making my finger, move, not move, move and not move.

My mind keeps controlling me, and just shout, what you want more till? to the adult. What they want, but not I want. They really do expect I do things that not even in my life plan. I may take the road less travelled. And at that time, they think it is a short cut either way. I wish I can ask them : "What else?" . (with a knife on my hand) . Whether that I kill you, or, I kill myself.

They have no right to infringe my own expectation that leads, should I lodge a case to court on this?

Having no idea how could this surrounding ends. Unless, they are all death. Playing death, being death.

Deepest Sympathy, A Testimonial for his left

Well just knowing your left and I got a shocked on this shocking information retrieve on website.
Thanks to the high development technology today that can link world wide.

Your left is a waste, a lost for the community. I can feel the persistence that you insist on things. I can feel that your contribution is a use for the societies and the members who surround you. I can feel that you keep this ill in silence until the moment you leave. Not many people knows that. And this already 2 plus years ago.

From the start that we knew you as our mentor. I remember that once you told me to hold on and not to be sad forever if someone's lost. Because you still need to live on and you are still alive.

I do pray (religiously) that your families and friends can now having the strength to live on and gay.  Treat what you had left are those good memories even though a short one but memorable. 2 plus years, I figure this out quite late.

I'm not planning to letting my parents know this mournful information. and as you wish, will keep it still in silence until they question.

Rest in peace. Get a better life in your new one, as I do believe that everything in this universal is in a cycle.
We all will be meeting up again.

Deepest Sympathy..

New Year 2013

New Year, new dream, new life, new occasion, new thinking, new mind, new look....

The most excited goose-bumping feel that day. Oh hew   ~ ~ ~ took a deep breath released after seeing the status is been approved. What ?!! Oh Yeah, that's it is.

Every when what's my mom think that I could not get it, and then, I got it. Thanks for the faith indeed.

Yes, this is all about application for the New Zealand Working Holiday Visa that I was eagerly wanting since last year. Overcome all the obstacles in my mind, my head, my think, with a minimal sort of application research, and then, that is the decision I made.

Clicking on the "Submit" which is so unconformable. And then started to think the "What If" theory. Oh Damn!

That is not the most suffering one so far. Yet, there are still a lot of explanation which consumes more of my energy and watery mouth to my parents for that planning. Fear, trust-worthy, and then she got a lot / more than of "What If" theory in her mind. Haizzz, couldn't them be more modernized.

And now, I would like to tell you what I'm thinking......

And I think, and truly think that freedom of growth, power of wisdom, uncovered mindset is the most important virtual for me nowadays. Am getting older and life been 25 more years now. And what do I get, what did I get? What do I have? Sophistication point of view, the maturity way of thoughts?

I do realize getting flying colors in my exams and they are just flying colours. Buying properties and earning money and they are just money and properties. You may think it is the most prosperous life you have with material.  But "What If" ......

Seeing friends putting on their gown walking down to the aisle, seeing them getting profits buying shares and doing well sales. Driving nice car, living nice houses. And they almost own many things in their life, and then, they will have kids, and will be seeing them doing the same recycling life that they used to. Perhaps it will be differently odd, but still in the same cycle.

I hope that cycle will stop when my generation.

Respect not to the eldest one, but it is to degree: Respect to the characteristics and it always kept in heart NOT MOUTH! Polite not equivalent how you greet the respective,  it is the manners that you present for something.

Fight is not brutal, but to show rights by emotional.

That's why Obama says : " change "

Not only Americans, but the nations with the attitude practicing in life.

Honestly, I never travel as far as this before, and I do remember once I got my degree in 21 age, jobs come first. I do not regret on what I did. For that situation, what I really need was "Money and car" And that saved me. Money was so important for me, working hard, pretending strong on my daily basis and it continuously living till now....

The world is as big as unimaginable. But why human's just thinking what's their ancestors thought. And ancestors generated to another generation.

I would rather adopt a child in orphanage instead giving birth my self. Getting a companion instead of getting married. Be a lobo instead obedient girl staying at house.

All those facts have changed my mind and it grows gradually. The innovation is still under implementation.

And please do forgive my rebel of such thinking.... *not being religious...

New Year ... NEW ZEALAND .. here I start my journey and hope it would never ends...